I was going to title this post "don't leave me hanging on like a yo-yo", but having thought about it, that title would just be wrong in so many ways.
For a start, I didn't give it a capital letter, and that would be bad, very bad.
Secondly, I don't want to give anyone the impression that I'm about to hang myself - that would be very far from the truth, so please no-body panic.
This weekend I've been to the Saturday morning prayer meeting that our church has, and then a church training meeting, and then to church this morning. At each of these there have been people that have asked me "How are you?" in a way that showed they actually wanted to hear the answer - they weren't just asking for the sake of asking. Although I probably haven't expressed to them just how down I've been feeling, I've been able to share a little bit of the stresses that are going on in my life. And time after time I've heard them say those special words "I'll be praying for you", and I know that they meant it. It's really been such a blessing to know that people do care.
I can't say that everything is sorted yet, but I know that I've got people on my side, and that all I can do is go into the meeting tomorrow moring and say what I've got to say. God already knows what the outcome will be, I've just got to trust him on that.
I've decided that I want to say that I don't want to continue at the school after Christmas (that is, I don't want my contract to be renewed). I've no idea quite how the headteacher will respond to that, but we'll see...