I haven't blogged over here in a long time, partly I guess because it felt like I didn't need to blog here. I felt like 'big' had changed to 'beautiful'. I'd changed physically, but more importantly, I'd changed emotionally too.
I fell in love, with myself firstly, and then with M, who's now my husband. I felt beautiful. I recognised that beauty is on the inside, not just the outside. I've learnt so much and changed in so many ways since I started this blog back in September 2006.
So, why am I blogging here again? I'm almost 21 weeks pregnant and my body is changing shape again. It's exciting, but it's also scary and actually quite difficult to come to terms with.
I'd got thinner, my tummy wasn't huge, I felt more normal sized, and now my tummy is growing again, and it's sometimes hard to deal with.
I have high hopes for this baby, and for me, but I'm also scared that the weight won't come off again afterwards. I don't want to lose my determination, my spark, the impetus that helped me to lose the weight in the first place. So here I am to document the second half of my pregnancy a little, and how I'm dealing with changes in my body.